Taking a Little Break

Hello, all my dear ones out there. I know you all have been checking on me, and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for all your words of encouragement, all your well wishes and all your prayers most of all. I am still struggling to get over this bug. I have been through 2 rounds of antibiotics and started another one today. I have had shots, and steroids and x-rays, and ekgs and tons of bloodwork - you name it. I still have a little bronchitis, and now they tell me I have a little pleurisy, too. I had to go to the emergency room last night. I was having severe chest pains and was worried about my heart of course. They checked me over well, and the Dr. said that pleurisy certainly does mimic a heart attack. I never knew what pleurisy was, but they said it was an inflamation of the lung cavity and probably because I'd been sick for so long. So here we go with another round of meds.

But I am thankful for living in the good ole USA where you can run to the ER, run to just about any wonderful Dr around the corner, run the pharmacy and get whatever you need to help yourself get well. I was thinking about people in past ages before the time of good medicine and what they must have had to suffer through. It truly was "survival of the fittest" - you either got better or you died. I am deeply thankful to be living in this time. My family has been great - my husband has taken a few days off from work to help me, my daughter has been my nurse, and my friends and family have chipped in to help out with food. I'm blessed beyond measure.

I'm most thankful to the Lord for getting me through this. I will have some anxiety issues to deal with after this illness is over, but certainly being physically sick for so long has done nothing to help with the mental part of it! I have found several different outlets to start checking into on the anxiety thingie, so I'm looking forward to being well enough to begin getting a handle on that.

I just wanted you all to know that I appreciate your care and concern to come check on me. I may take little breaks from blogging from time until I am back to my old self. I love this blogging thing, but somehow, this is wierd - mostly all I did while I was my sickest was read emails and research stuff on the internet and read blogs - it all reminds me of anxiety and being sick. I'm having to back off a little and take it in small increments - I know that sounds wierd and it's hard to explain - just like I dread going to bed at night, because nights were the worst. I haven't slept a whole night through without getting up at least 3-4 times to feed my hypoglycemia (which the Dr says is caused by too much adrenaline from anxiety which causes the body to create too much insulin which causes hypoglycemia) to just not being able to sleep. Anyway, it depresses me to get into bed. I've taken to getting on the couch some. My hubby has not been able to sleep with me at all, cuz I'm up and down so much and he's got to go to work. He does come and check on me. I have been sick to my stomach from the hypoglycemia/antibiotics for 3 weeks now and have lost 10 lbs. I did need to lose some weight, but not this way.

Well, enough - just know that I'm coming back from time to time - I'm not gone. and perhaps this will all change and get better when I can be physically well again and have a whole new outlook on life. I'm SOOOOOOO ready to get back to LIFE! Thank you all my friends! Vickie